OH. MY. GOD. 😳

 

okay WHAT? I have five views? THAT IS SO AWESOMEEE. I am screaming. LITERALLY screaming. And jumping. Shit man, this is the best thing ever. Thank you guys SO SO SO MUCH. I love you guys ALREADY. 
Man this Sunday was something huge. I discovered that I got FIVE (hear me right, FIVE) views.

And one of my old friends started texting me. It had been long since we spoke. We used to talk a lot before, but then we stopped and i just can't seem to remember why 😕. So yeah, we started talking and eventually got to the topic of dating. He said he wasn't dating someone or wasn't into anyone. And it was the same for me so i told him that. 
And after a while he started getting really flirty. I mean i know that happens with everyone, no. Not me. Never me. No one's ever flirted with me, let alone like me. So it was extremely funny and overwhelming 😳😂. I sort of flirted back but it probably wasn't even visible lol. 

And then he disappeared for a while, and texted back. And then he asked me out in the cutest way. 😭😱😂😁💖. I was so confused and i was also laughing. But then he told me that he really liked me and that he has for a few years now. I was extremely surprised. And then i told him that i needed time to process this and think about what i wanna do about this. 
And then of course, i rushed to my best friend's house. Let's just call her G for now, shall we? So i went to her house and told her everything. She was really happy for me. Then we both decided that it would be the best to take it slow, and that i should get to know him better first. So i told him that and he was happy to know that.
The next day we spoke for a while and later that day he suddenly says that he has to break up with me (like wtf bruh.). I was taken aback so all i could get out was 'What?'. Then he tells me that his mom got to know that he was dating me and didn't like it at all. And she wanted him to stop dating me. Yup. I KNOW. That is so ridiculous. I got sort of annoyed and but i said it's okay because then he told me how his mother means everything to him, and that he couldn't see her upset. I mean, how could i say no to that? Of course his mother was more important, and i know that because my mom is the most important person to me too. So i told him that i understood.

But then he told me about how his mom is gonna allow him to date after another year or two, and that we can go out then. And then i don't know why but i just sort of blurted things out. Like why would you still like me then? I mean no one ever has why would you after 2 years? And he said he's liked me for a few years now and that he probably will in a few more. It was such a sweet thing to hear but also sounded untrue :/

Yet i told him that it was okay, not a problem. Then he told me that he had to deactivate his account on Insta because his mom was upset. Now this is the part that actually got to me. The fact that his mom would want that was just crazy. How much ever i love my mom, she would never tell me to do something like that, even if she did i would figure out a way to use Insta. I mean it's Instagram, it's where you get to know stuff, get to meet awesome people; some of them who are like you, where you can go for a good laughter when you're alone, an app you can use to share all of that with your friends and talk to them.

So he told me that he's deactivating his account and he wanted me to text his friend to just know what happened, or tell her something that i would want to say to him. Then again that was weird too (why would i wanna talk to a random person, i can't open up even with my closest people, why would  do that with a stranger), but he asked a lot so i said okay.
I text her. And guess what? She is literally ME. Except an older version. She talked like me, she texted fast like me, and when i told her what i felt, she said she felt that too! It was awesome to instantly vibe with a stranger. 
Then we got to the topic of him (i thought that since she was his best friend, she would back him up), she told me to forget all about him. And the fact that "he would get back to me in a few years" was just stupid 😂. And that i should enjoy being single when i can and that i will get the guy I've always dreamt of. 

It made me feel so uplifted. And then i thought about the fact that there might be more like me, who are equally confused. So this is what i wanted to say to you guys
If you ever feel that you have been waiting for that one person to come into your life, and yet nothing has happened, don't overthink it. Trust me, you'll find the one :) It's just that the universe is taking it's time, but it will work, FOR SURE. 
Enjoy being single! It's not all the time that you can go to the movies alone whenever you want to, or if you see a hot/ pretty/ charming guy/girl you can just flirt! You won't have to worry about being cheated on, or having fights, or a break up. You can just live life with your friends and family, an most importantly YOURSELF. 
Believe in yourself! I know, I know, you get that a lot, but hear me out. Be confident about yourself and love yourself the most. Because if you don't, then why would someone else? Right?

So please, please, please LOVE (clap) YOURSELF (clap) THE (clap) MOST (clap)!! Treat yourself like the Queen or King that you are! Enjoy with the people who are already in your life instead of waiting for someone! But when that one person comes into your life and swoops you off your feet (which they will!) you. will. love. it bro!

Now please help me out! What am i supposed to do about my 24-hour-lasting-boyfriend who tells me that he will be back for me in a few years? Should i wait for him :/ ? Or should i just go out with someone else over the years (pfft if i ever get the chance to)? I thought that the moving on option would be better, but i wanna hear what you guys think, i really do! Comment down below! 

BUUUT.... thank you guys SO much for the views, you have no idea how much it means to me, you're the besssst!! Please stick with me kay💖🙈? Because now i feel more motivated to write and talk to you guys! I'll see you next time (can't wait)!!

S,
signing off, xxx