hello world!

Hey everyone! What's up? Well i can't really expect a lot for that question because COVID has made everyone's life a hot mess 😓. Many of us are locked at home, some of us with people, and some of us without.
That's one of the reasons i started this blog. There are so many feelings bottled up in me that i don't think will be fine to share with my family. Luckily i have my friends, but sometimes strangers (as in you guys in this situation) are the best to talk to.
The other reason is that teenage can be very confusing, and by very i mean EXTREMELY😳. And i'm sure that there are millions of you out there who can relate. So i just wanna talk to you guys about stuff like that and see if you can relate too, and hopefully you guys can help me get out of messes 😅.

I'm planning on keeping this blog anonymous, so you guys can just call me..... S? Also just so you know I'm a girl 😂.

Okay now let me give you guys a proper view of moi (and no, i do not know French; that is probably the only word i know in French). I live in India and i'm 15. I'm very much into art, i'm not that great but i think my work is pretty good. I watch a lot of movies and TV shows, and currently I'm binging on Brooklyn 99. It's so good you guys, you have to watch it. Also i do read a TON of books. And i think that the book it always better than the movies 🤷. Do any of you think that too? Let me know!

And coming to music. It is a MAJOR part of my life. I'm 100% sure that i would become depressed if i didn't have music in my life. I play music while doing almost everything! I think that music can motivate anyone to do or achieve something. I seriously cannot imagine my life without music. 
And so i started playing a guitar. Well, i'm still a beginner, its been only months since i got my guitar. I just know parts of some songs, but HEY, i'm a self learner😂. 
Emotionally talking, i'm not big on emotions. I mean i do have them, but i choose not to express them in front of people i'm not that close to or comfortable with. I overthink almost everything a lot. I'm very afraid that people who i think love me secretly hate me :/ . I've always had the feeling that the more emotions you show, the more vulnerable you become. But for some reason i like it when others show emotions. But i'm scared to. A friend once told me that i'm like the Mariana Trench, very deep and hard to understand, but in an intriguing way. Are any of you guys like this too? 
Also i LOVE the ocean. Its my spirit element. I have no idea how to even start to explain why i feel so drawn to the ocean. Its beautiful and dangerous and intriguing and restless and unending. Its home to so many amazing and awesome creatures. Honestly, i can go on and on about the ocean, but this is enough for now hehe😅😂.

So yeah i really hope i can pull off this blog. I want all you awesome people out there to read my blog and be able to say that you can totally relate. TBH that would be awesomeee :).

I guess that is it for now. If someone has been reading this, then, oh my gods, i cannot thank you enough for it!! Let me know what you think in the comments section below :) !

S,

signing off, xxx